Monday, August 30, 2010

"But I'll still be your baby!"

Someday, you too will be sitting on your bed, wondering where to start. Sad, lonely and crying for the child that just left. Off you went to kindergarten today, just five years old; too soon for your sad, pathetic mother. I just picked up your silver sandals and opened a creased paper that says, "MOM." Inside, is a bright drawing of you on a horse. I miss my little girl. I know it will get better, but that too makes me sad, imagining I could forget how much I loved having you with me. You were my partner and pal these past two years; my carefree companion who required nothing more than toast and a story. This past year I said to you nearly every day, "Oh Camille, I'm going to miss you so much when you go to school." Without fail, you'd look up from what you were doing and say, "But that's okay, cause I'll still be yoooooour baby!"
I'm counting on it, sweet thing.

9 comments:

jill said...

So sad! So sweet! What a beautiful picture of her! What a great post!

Boo hoo!

jessamyn said...

Ok this actually made me cry, babies aren't supposed to grow up. Camille is such a beautiful little girl!

Jek said...

bawling! Sad sad sad! I hate it too! I hate that my babysitter just went to kindergarten.

Jayne Layne said...

Waaaaa!! I have a full frowny face pout trying not to cry but tears swelling up in my eyes. ....

Still... getting stronger... crinckled chin....

So sad. I had the same feeling watching Caroline get on the bus today. I love these little girls and am sad to see them grow up. Even worse for you cause she is your last....maybe.

VEGAS VIC said...

What a cute picture and comment.
She is sooo cute. Here I am trying to hold back tears and dad says "read it out loud" Not a chance.
Love her.

partii said...

good thing you can do hard things

Anonymous said...

Sweet post, Jennifer. Camille stole my heart a long time ago and I have only seen her a few times. I cried last night though the finally episode of the Gilmore Girls when Rory graduated Yale. (I have all of the episodes so I can cry again any time I want). I get sappier every day. Jake graduating from high school nearly did me in. I can just imagine what I will do when I attend Nathan's 6th birthday party the last of October. Nick is right about "hard things", they just keep coming. Aunt Nancy

Kimmie said...

First off, I have really missed you Jennifer!!

You and I are "Two peas in a pod" in so many aspects of life, yet we are very different as well.

I can relate to the tender feelings you felt through the summer having sad feelings of sending your baby off to school and dreading that day.

I think you would the perfect author of books, as you have such an eloquent way of telling your feelings and they're feelings that all of the rest of us have felt at one point in our lives.

That sweet little face, adorable smile and gorgeous blue eyes, are definitely something that any mom would greatly miss!! Love that you said "all she requires is toast and a story". That's the sweetness of kids, they just want time and attention. They don't require too many other things.

Kids do grow up, but they also still have a way of being "our babies". Ethan just told me as I kissed him at church on Sunday after he gave a talk in Primary "Mom, what did I tell you about kissing and hugging me in public; it embarrasses me". Talk about sending a mom to tears. He always used to run and give me hugs all of the time this year and now it's come to a hault. Oh well, at least he enjoys plenty of hugs and kisses at home.

On a happy note....enjoy some free time with no interruptions and time to work on projects, write, create, whatever it is that you want to do.

Mitch said...

I'm choosing to remain cold and heartless right now. If i don't, tears will surely begin to fill the outer layer of my cornea. Good post/sad post/depressing post. :)