Sunday, August 15, 2010

Jennifer Can Do Hard Things


Lately my blog has been mostly a show and tell. I realize I'm primarily basing that statement on the only two posts I've written this summer, however, I do know what's on the docket and there's more of the same coming. I don't see this as a bad thing, since it means our spring and summer have been filled with fun things that are worth pulling out of the bag to hold high and describe. But I will admit, I've missed the writing process these past months. I told my friend recently I need to get back into reading. Since I started my blog, I basically traded reading for writing. Never seemed like there was room enough for both. I do love a good book, but I think my nature is more fulfilled by a piece of writing that satisfies me; I've always been that way. Anyway, not sure the reason for that preface, when what I really wanted to say is it's August 15th and the nervousness is starting to take root.

No matter what, when I see the end in sight, two things happen: I dig my claws in deep, and try to fight it, then-- realizing it's inevitable, I simultaneously make a complex plan (maybe even a motto) to make a smooth and triumphant transition. In other words, this morning in the shower I was thinking that with only two weeks to go, we still need to make it to the beach again, clean out drawers, buy clothes and supplies, dejunk this and that, spend more time eating outside using our new barbecue and 2,ooo other things that feel undone. But my thought within that thought is what will inspire me to accomplish more this upcoming season and what new system will help me thrive this time around?

I did come up with a few ideas. How about "I Can Do Hard Things" repeated over and over? I know that sounds gay-- (and to call it that is certainly not pc) but nevertheless, it is sorta gay to have a motto, but there it is. I shouldn't even admit it in public. But I'm forty, what do I care anymore. This phrase is a result of hoping that if I start to believe it about myself, I might be able to become an early riser in the morning and be one of those people who says, "I got more done before nine a.m. than I did all of last week combined!" What I'm really trying to say is, I like working-out but I hate how it eats away at my day, so I'd like to take the 5:45 am class but don't know how to make myself. With that in mind, I thought about the year I taught 6:00 am seminary for the first eight months of my fourth pregnancy and I concluded that, "I can do hard things!" The glitch is: I can do hard things when someone asks me to. Just not myself.

I'll start by giving orders in the third person; that should work.

9 comments:

jessamyn said...

Jen, I'm going to need you to start working out at 5:45 AM from now on ;)

Jayne Layne said...

Well that is some great motivation fer ya. I feel you though. There are so many things I want to do, but in reality when am i ever actually going to do them? I am however; starting to go to the gym at 7am in the mornings. Having a husband work from home is the best! You can come too. Rumor has it that jek goes at that time too. Now lets get Jill and Kelley and we can all go skip on the treadmill together.

Good luck with them hard things. Let me know when you start, and let me know how long it lasts.

Ann Marie said...

Good Motto.
I miss your writing too!
Enjoy your last weeks/months of summer....

Up in Bubbles said...

Good luck with the before light working out! I have never mastered that or hardly have attempted but I sure would like to. I need to go to bed earlier that would be a start. 7am is early but that sounds better than 5:45am

Mrs. Organic said...

Oh Jen, we are two Cancer peas from the same pod. Note to self: Commence crafting a motto, pronto!

I love that pic of you!

Jenni and Mitch Miller said...

i love this post. my mom use to always tell us, "mella's do hard things.." i haven't really taken that to heart so much, but thanks for the good reminder! you're a great example all the time jen!

Anonymous said...

that's what she said!

Anonymous said...

Good Motto, Jennifer. That became my motto over the years -- nothing I would have chosen. My two year service mission has proven one of the "Hardest". Who knew serving the Lord could give you highs, lows, black holes, gray holes, "why me?", all in the same 8 hour shift (exactly 7 minutes from the sanctity of my little home). From my perspective (7 decades), you will be really good at doing the "hard things." You do them now and are great! Not sure this thought makes sense; but, here it is. Love, Aunt Nancy

Kimmie said...

I still am amazed that you taught early morning seminary at 6:00 am when you were pregnant! I wish so badly I could have lived part of my life in the "Mission field". Life is so much different when you live in Rexburg, Idaho. People take things (spiritual/church related) for granted. They have "released time" where kids get released for an hour during school to to and attend seminary. Anyway, not to digress.

I think it's great to have a motto, or something that keeps you inspired and motivated!

Hope you were able to make a dent in your 2,000 things you wanted to accomplish before school started! (you worded that paragraph SO perfectly!)

Whatever you post and whenever you post it, it is a JOY to read and visit your blog and I always come away a better person.

You ARE amazing and YES, you've done and will continue to do hard things!